I WANT TO GO TO THERE.

GLEE.

i love wednesdays again.

oh and i just need to have quick linkage to this forever.

thank you kanye! it wasn't funny when it happened (no one can be mean to taylor swift, she's just too nice. that's like someone being mean to beyonce. which, by the way. she is totally on michelle obama status), but oh good lord this is going to be the quote of the next month. well, one of them. "IMMA LET YOU FINISH. BUT BEYONCE HAD ONE OF THE BEST VIDEOS OF ALL TIME", and, the one we can't forget... "oh. you again?.... you offend me."

QUALITY.

people i've seen this week

holla once for one non-celebrity sighting!!!


holla twice for one celebrity-that-is-so-six-years-ago-for-me sighting!!!


HOLLA HOLLA HOLLA FOR SEX AND THE CITY!!!

ha ha ha

my google searches are off the chain today

hey dimmitt!

yayyy he gets to move on, can we all move on?!

i don't know who this video honey is, but hey she'll do for the sake of all i have to say. happy people didn't get their panties completely in a twist about signing michael vick. for a hot second i thought everybody was just gonna leave him hangin. what he did was wrong, yes, but he acknowledged that and he definitely served his time and earned his right back to his profession. i just googled him trying to find a funny picture, but instead i got a picture of one of the dogs that fought. MOOD KILL.

i haven't slept since 11 AM (that's when i woke up) and somehow now i have to go to work.... for my first day..... and i'm pretty fucking cranky and oh yeah i'm kind of tired but i made a mistake and took non-sleepy medicine before bed so i was up the whole night. womp womp. guess who's napping at 3:45 when they walk in the door?????

oh side note i kinda miss mediatakeout :( . not like it went anywhere, i just stopped reading it.

goodbye dancing love of my life :(

I'M BACK yay

the one who makes everything right.

my weekend was great. laughter, sadness, love, and good company. at the beginning, i found myself sprinting through penn station, eagerness and anxiety fueling every stride, every jump over rolling luggage. i made the train with minutes to spare. it's funny in retrospect because it only saved me an hour, but what a great hour it was. realizing what that hour meant to me makes me want to wake up in the morning to see the face that makes me happiest. i never thought i would ever be in this situation. the girl who once never showed she cared now makes herself sick with the thought of wanting permanent security and someone always at her side in bed. questions are like a violent storm in my mind. what are these feelings? what does this all mean? why do things change? am i doing too much? is this right? is this normal? why do i cry? am i sad or angry? i just want to go home. and i don't know which home i want more.

i'm pretty sure that out of all this, for once in my life, i am happier than i have ever been. pretty sure this is what i needed. pretty sure i don't want this to change.

Does anybody think Jonathan rhys meyers is a fox? What about patrick dempsey?

My laptop is literally three feet away from me. But in the most serious way I just don't feel like reaching for it and changing the awkward way in which i'm sitting to put it on my lap. Thus, I will put phone updating to use. I'm watching New York Goes to Work right now. Worst show ever. Next week she might be a pet groomer. It just reminded me about how i'm on a 2-4 year plan right now to get a dog. I went to the pet store the other day with Betty and Ian and absolutely fell in love with a pekignese puppy, so i'm gonna get one. Why such a long wait? I'm petrified that something bad will happen and I won't be able to afford puppy medical bills, so I wanna wait to get one until I have a full-time well-paying job. God I can't wait! And fuck this show is stupid.

and so are mobile updates. my post is all split up! lame!

it's pretty much official. i've been in and/or on my bed for 24 hours.

let's see how long i can keep this going. assless tights are retarded. i just wanted to say that. there's no point.

massachusetts has been boring to me today. when i wake up in the morning i want to try to get the old wet sponge smell away from the sink. i don't know what's causing it or where it's coming from, so that could become quite an event.

before i go to bed i'm going to study french on my ipod. yes. oh and now i can update this thing from my phone so hopefully i won't go dead blog until at least september HALLELU.

this collage is boring.

somali pirates aren't as interesting looking as i'd thought they'd be. they're basically just terrorists of the sea, and that's exactly what they look like. BORING. i want feathers and vibrant colors and gold teeth! that's what i wanted to see. but no. what is easter good for???

oh donn!

i just decided to google my illustration professor in between working on this odd collage assignment he gave us. i was really interested in seeing some of his work. i couldn't find anything though. found a picture of him and three friends. and found that he's the editor of almost all the ray bradbury published works. ray bradbury lives in california. my professor's not going to be in class next week because he's going to california. AM I ON TO SOMETHING???

i have a field trip in thirty minutes. i don't like the idea of a field trip when it's this cold and unpleasant outside. AH WELL!

it's been a nice little return to school from massachusetts. thought i must say, i really do miss my week of not waking up in the morning and playing wii in the afternoon. i actually miss the wii fit a lot. i wonder how much i weigh?? i wonder if i'm still underweight?? i wonder if i have found my center of balance??????
while i was home, i took time to get my hands on a couple CDs, the dream's new one (or maybe not that new??) was a must because he is a guilty pleasure of mine. i still can't decide how i feel about the cd as a whole. i feel like it's just an extension to his first cd, which really doesn't surprise me, but i thought he'd show us all something new.. let us all know that he's capable of doing more than engineering his vocals to some far left field beat. i've listened to the cd a couple times now, and this is one song that i still don't really enjoy listening to (much like the rihanna joint on the last cd, which i have seen grown to appreciate a little more).

this is "my love" dream ft. mariah carey



who still has trouble imagining nick cannon and mariah carey at home alone spending a nice quiet weekend on the couch with the dogs???? does anyone picture the two of them in her crazy ass apartment that was on mtv cribs umpteen years ago???? AND SPEAKING OF NICK CANNON. apparently ray-j does end up picking danger and then knocks her up only to find that there is underlying infidelity because girlie is in love with NICK CANNON'S YOUNGER BROTHER???????????? WHAT IS THIS FUCKERY?????????? i hope this is all a lie. who the fuck is nick cannon's younger brother anyway???

on a side note. kicks not related to kanye or louis vuitton, which is new for me right now (yep i'm dickriding louis right now, i said it), i like these a shit ton.

i'm thinkin they could be my new #1 pair. right now i've been rockin my velvet blazer's pretty much every day, which is a huge turn around from when i was afraid to wear them anywhere because i didn't want to ruin them. i definitely need a low pair of kicks to wear for the upcoming warm months.

i gotta go prepare for a trip to brand x printing, which i hope is fun, minus the weather, and my being introverted around the kids in this class. le sigh!

how is it already 2?

they say online that this shit has already started to appear in people's mailboxes. HOW DO YOU GET ON THE LIST TO HAVE THIS APPEAR IN YOUR MAILBOX???? perhaps that's a question i should direct towards my main sneaker buddy phil. anyway. like the kanye designed kicks for louis vuitton, i want these. why? i don't know. i don't think i'd really wear them that much.. but they kinda fine!

DANGER DANGER

i'm just gonna go out on a limb here and say that danger is going to win for the love of ray j. and by that i mean they're going to fall deeply in love and live happily ever after. basically i got an insider tip from ray j himself. it came in the form of his new video, "sexy ladies". check it out for yourself. who got the most face time? danger! surprisingly followed by lil hood... which is odd 'cause that girl crazy.

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what do we think of this vid? has ray j officially sold out yet?

wonders whats going on in boston right now

this screams new england mom.

get yours today! ezcomb.com

WHAT.

went to salem today with ian and got a lot of great pictures for bill's class. when i get them developed, i'll scan some and post them. as i'm pretty sure i've said before, i need to do more of that sharing my work thing because i really don't do it enough. one thing we both noticed about salem is that it's filled with a lot of interesting old men. we got at least three pretty dope photos of some interesting characters.. can't wait to see them printed!

i need to get my mind off amber

GROAN

oh this is gonna become a bad addiction

okay. if you listened to the k&c show last night (which i'm sure you didn't! so go peep it now at the kimandcookie blog), you heard our little convo about this amber girl. i'm going to have to start labeling her in my posts because it seems like she is slowly becoming a bad epidemic for me. i just wanna set some things straight before i make it seem like i passionately dislike the girl. she has cool style, actually, quite great style, and perhaps for that i am slightly envious, who know. however. there is still something about her that i just don't like for Ye. WHERE'S ALEXIS???

but hey. at least they're finally talking.

really???

NOOOOOOO

alright it's official. i'm reading blogs again. not because i really have the time, but because i have a silkscreen critique in about an hour and i just finished my final project. oy vey. i just don't wanna work on anything else right now! so i'm brushing up on my street wear and fashion because hey let's face it, i need to invest more time in being fabu.

who the fuck is this amber chick that kanye's dating???? where did she come from???? why does he like her????

REALLY?!?!?!??!

this is so agonizing for me WHY CAN'T HE GO BACK TO ALEXIS???

REVELATIONS!

i realized yesterday that i don't do anything on the internet anymore, even when i'm bored. so, i decided i would spend some of this boredom time ending my dead blog!!

but not now because i have to go silkscreen.


ayeayeaye!

OH GOOD LORD IT'S ALMOST BEEN A MONTH.

really busy with school. i don't have much of a social life anymore. but it's all good! i'm going to get back on this again though, for real. i have a lot on my mind... and to be quite honest i'm not sure why i went dead blog for a minute. AH WELL!

stay tuned...

woosah 100th post

i've been kinda mia lately, and that's entirely due to classes starting again. not only am i spending a good 40 hours a week between classes and homework, i also have a job now too, so i on a daily basis i don't usually get the chance to come online and post something. today, however, is a different story.. i don't have class until 2:00 tomorrow (and how i can't wait for it!). anywayyyyy.

one thing i wanted to start doing blog wise in addition to posting more pictures is giving my two cents on new shit that's coming out. i haven't been doing it much lately because let's face it, most of the street wear business is for dudes and i'm tryna take a step back from dressin like a bro all the time. kanye's recent collab with louis vuitton, however, totally got me pumped today.

now i've never been one for spending insane amounts of money at louis vuitton (mainly because, let's face it, i can't afford it). but i'm telling you. these kicks could very well be my first louis purchase. i love them.i love the gray, and surprisingly, i love the hot pink. but my absolute favorite detail is the gold bear that's on the laces. I FUCKING LOVE THESE SNEAKERS. i feel like if i actually got them i would be way too chicken shit to wear them, but we shall see. i could end up wearing them every day. very impressed mr. west, very impressed.

WHAT A DREAM.

i don't know why, but for some reason last night i was super super nervous before i went to bed. i don't know if it was a combination of talking to certain people before bed, the events of the night, or for some reason being really freaked about classes starting again. whatever it was, it made falling asleep really difficult and made waking up in the middle of the night real frequent. somehow though, between the nerves and the sleepless syndrome, i managed to have quite an odd dream.the dream starts with darryl and i just getting out of class. we go to the cafeteria to grab some food, and on our way to lafayette (i don't know why we were going there) we see five open house signs. since we were looking for an apartment, we decide to take a look. at the first apartment, we notice that there is a sign for an office and we decide to stop in to talk to the owner. as soon as we step into the office, there is a woman standing at a podium, the rest of the room is jam packed with people. the woman at the podium is holding a phone in the air yelling "WHO CAN GO TO EUROPE WITH DIDDY FOR TWO DAYS???"to my surprise, nobody offered to go to europe with diddy! i was so confused, so i raised my hand and said "umm....when?" and the lady quickly responds with "STARTING TOMORROW". i explain to her that i would go with him, but i don't have a passport so i'd need to see if there was a way i could get an entertainer's passport that could be used just for this trip. she starts to get really frustrated with me and ends up just handing me the phone. i asked her what she wanted me to do with it and she said, "talk to diddy". everyone left the room.i get on the phone with diddy and explain to him the situation and he tells me to call this woman who works for the government and ask her about it. i couldn't understand what name he said so i asked him to repeat it. randomly i turned around and the woman's name and phone number was written on a chalkboard that wasn't there before. i awkwardly nodded and gave the phone back to the lady.

then i woke up for real because i thought i missed obama's inauguration speech. i tried to fall back into the dream, but i couldn't.

BUMMER.

oh good lord. totz speechless.

completely trashed watching double shot at love. so weird.

tonight was so nice. real update tomorrow. night probably.

pulling the kind of blog blogging i never thought i'd pull.

straight from ian's tired mind.

In the cave: 11-12

Me & ash were in a sparse crowd of friends and friends of friends who decided to come out in the cold. The music was confusing we couldnt decide if we love it or hate it because we couldnt dance to it. It was inspiring in the end because we came up with a 'clever' rhyme i wrote down in my phone after. I got a buzz from my christmas present. We left to go get warm/ food.

In the womb: 12-2

After we ordered our food, We got into a good talk about where we see ourselves after school/ the state of our lives/ how there are really on 2 types of gay guys: brooklyn and manhattan. I told ash that I would have drank more tonight if I were alone for the wrong reasons and was glad to be out. Discussing things rationally made me upset and alone. I felt like the tomato basil soup in front of me was the best thing I had for a second. Ash thought she saw LL Cool J and followed him with her eyes. Cafeteria is full of couples in a chelsea atmosphere at an odd hour on an odd night. Couples are making out, drunk, going to the bathroom together and then theres me and ash dancind in our seats to hercules & love affair like were getting paid. Some of the waiters are remotely cute. As Ash watches LL Cool J I was sitting across her staring blankly in front of me thinking about how cold I was and how I just wanted to go sleep. I just wanted one of the waiters dressed in brown like a ups man to gently guide me as if i were attached to a fluid bag in a hospital. The moment was all about me and pleasing me. I was guided to the back of the kitchen and there was a brown bed waiting for me in a dark corner. Together me and the waiter lie down, ignoring our surroudings and quickly subside to sleep. Then when the dream can get no better i focus again on ash, and on the candle beneath her and ask about LL Cool J. He left and we never found out if it was him. I accidentally left my card in the place and when we went back to get it, the waiter with it subtly hits on me. Odd and unusual night.

In the Subway: 2-3

*GROAN*

took another nyquil. i should be sound asleep soon. i. can't. wait.

idk why shaq's tweets don't show up on my twitter feed anymore.. but SHAQ YOU A HORSE!!!

well. at least the rats aren't runnin' around.

i was just about to start a new series of small paintings on paper when i came across this.wtf, mcdonalds. wtf.

homeboy FREAXX me out

enjoying my final days of not working. on wednesday, i'll be working for the first time since august. i didn't work at all last semester, and this semester i'm totally od-ing on having things to do besides school. ahhh well.

dudes on craigslist are a riot.


that's all.

just decided homeboy at abrcramby looks more like tyson beckford than tyrese

i've been staring at this picture of anderson cooper on my desktop since new years eve. every time i see it, i just stare for a minute and think about how i want to spend a minute indulging in my number one silver fox and blog about him. strange that i'm just getting around to it now.

ian and remy were over tonight and we spent a majority of the night chillin and watching tv. lots of news related programs for us, which is totally out of the ordinary. a little jon stewart, a little stephen colbert, a little anderson cooper. cooper was obv the best out of the three, followed by stephen colbert because he's actually funny, and finally jon stewart.

on new years eve ian and i watched anderson cooper and kathy griffin hosting their version of a new years celebration from times square. there was a totally hilarious dynamic between the two of them. i think it had something to do with kathy being SUPER comfortable (maybe overly comfortable??) around gay guys and coop trying to keep the mood on a more serious note. he was definitely confused by a couple things kathy said, which made for an awkward silence, which was funny. especially after sipping on champagne from a flask! (thanks mom~)

anyway. all this watching and obviously individually silently questioning coop got me and ian on a "let's see what we can find out about anderson cooper" spree on the interwebs. the best of coop: he has good blood (related to the vanderbilt's who owned the breakers mansion in newport, rhode island.....hubba hubba), was a model in his pre-teen and early teen years for calvin klein and macy's (just to name a few.....hubba hubba), he works out at one of the equinox gyms in the city where he showers in his undies (because he doesn't want people to see what he's workin with.....hubba hubba), and, HE DATES BOYS HALF HIS AGE.....HUBBA HUBBA.

right after we watched ac 360 tonight i got this weird urge to watch queer as folk. i was missing me some gale harold in my life. i don't really have anything to say about him, except that he's amazing and i can't figure out if he's all wifey'd up or not. he could totz be my anderson cooper and i could totz be his half-age boy~~
as soon as he ages more (or stops coloring his hair, whichever comes first), he could totally be my new number one silver fox. until then, a gay man controls my silver fox life. FIGYAHS.

dj dj dj cumming in my mouth

had a great night last night. me and ian will have photos of it so soon. theo told me about a video from the ninja sonik performance here at school. all'a me and kish's moves got us a cameo for a hot second!

VIMBY - Ninjasonik

i got a mad case of the nerves right now.

i've been pretty absent from this shit lately.. got back to bk and immediately started getting myself settled and figuring out what i'm doing with my life. i think i got all that under control right now... but i have an interview today and i'm nerve-wrecked for it. seriously. don't like this shit.

no school has left me with a lot of time to do really enjoyable things, like take insanely long walks around the city, read all my favorite design blogs, paint and take pictures. and re-arrange my room. to the MAX. i found these new packaging concepts on a blog that i absolutely love.with this entire packaging package (hah) i love how they've made everything relate to each other. no piece in this set looks like it doesn't belong. and the color palette is pretty great, too. seeing things like this makes me really excited to graduated. this is the kind of stuff i want to do for the rest of my life! bags and business cards and cup holders and carry out boxes! aye aye aye!

this is another one that really caught my eye:and this is just fucking hilarious. this is milk. it's called teet. like a teet that milk comes from. and the packaging look like teets. that you would suck milk out of. and on the side of the teet holder it says "you, suck". CLEVER AS HELL. i'm thinking this must be an asian product. i don't even like milk, but if i ever saw these i would buy them based on packaging alone.

..just like the new coke aluminum bottles. have you seen them? if not, you're missing out. i spent two fitty on one of them muhfuckas just because i wanted to drink out of that sexy new bottle. lemme tell you... it was worth it. and it's reusable forever! hallelu!

people who, for some reason, i don't like to see on my tv.

happy new year y'all. hope it was a good one. i sat alone in my room for a majority of the night until 11 when ian decided to stop by. spent the first couple hours of 2009 in bed with a glass of champagne and keith haring. may that be a sign of what's to come!

i don't think i'm going to come up with a new year's resolution this year. in the past i've found that i can't hold true to them. but i am, however, going to try to blog about more things that my dear dear readers can relate to more. yes, yes, you're welcome. the same entries of things that are just bouncing off my noggin, and more visual content that stimulates you're mind. i'm sure the two people that read this will be uncontrollably excited over this.

so for starters, i wanna talk about the actor pictured above, fabrizio filippo. i don't like him. as an actor he creeps me out, and just seeing his face, i get a little uncomfortable. my first introduction to him was in queer as folk. towards the end of the second season, beginning of the third, this fella plays ethan gold, a violinist who captures the heart of justin and steals him away from brian, thus making me hate this time period in the entire qaf series. some of you might have remembered his face from that really old late nght mtv series "undressed"? does anyone besides me even remember "undressed"? i feel like i am lone in remembering that series. for some reason i found it interesting, but then again i was, how old? ten?
i thought i would never see fabrizio the violinist actor again after suffering through his stint on queer as folk, but to my dismay, i just ran into him again. [or at least what i believe is him. i just checked fab's track record on imdb.com, and nothing is listed for the tudors, but i swear to you, i've too much experience with this face to be wrong! ahah ha!]
just like he stole brian away from justin, he acted as a kinda of distraction for a hot minute for anne boleyn in the series "the tudors". once again he's back with his fucking violin being a court jester, runnin' a muk givin' people ear orgasms and me a load of unnecessary and sort of inexplicable stress. luckily, in this series, he lasts a mere two episodes, if that, and doesn't have sex with anyone, so i don't have to see him nekkid.

what do you think of him? attractive or no?


EDIT: he appears again! playing the violin shirtless with a man standing in his doorway who says "that was beautiful". this then goes on to repeat acts as seen on queer as folk. figures. i spoke too soon. though, in these scenes i'm not sure if it's him. maybe the casters pulled a fresh-prince and replaced the actor?